Friday, May 09, 2008
I wish I could go back to being a kid again. Where life was so carefree and you trusted everyone so easily. You didn't need to worry about the future, you really just lived from day to day. Somehow you knew everything would be there for you. You never had to worry about what to do; at least mom and dad would have had that planned out. You just simply believed and trusted. Now it's all about thinking of how to survive out there in the future and equipping yourself with the neccessary skills. You struggle to make decisions as to what skills you would need. You are torn between interest, job prospects and a myriad of important considerations. It's like many voices shouting in your head; plus the literal voices of people telling you what you should do. It confuses and it frustrates. You don't know what to aim for, you really don't know what to do; what to pick.
The feeling is so overwhelming. Sometimes i would want to come face to face with my 'troubles' but sometimes i just live in denial. It creates a false sense of security and bliss.. just for a while...
I need the same childlike faith and trust.
let it snow
9:31 AM