Thursday, July 28, 2005
fell aslp on the couch last night so i missed inuyasha! woke up at 6+ and started grumbling bout getting up early, was grudgingly getting out of bed when i realised that i supposed to ponteng sch today.. haha.. woke up at 10 and went to watch the inuyasha i taped last night only to find out it had turned into man hunt! ARGH! apparently didn't specify which channel to tape coz i muttered it out in a 3/4 awake state. Was quite pissed... ate breakfast and read harry potter before doing some last minute practice, had lunch and watched the 6th episode of inuyasha.. dorcas burned the cd.. cont. practicing before mom came home and we set off...
Piano exam, the 1st scale went pretty well then i stumbled on the 2nd scale and mjority of the others.. the stooopid examiner found out that my left hand was weaker and started throwing all the staccato and 3rd apart scales at it! (my poor left hand) i was like "screw you! stupid examiner!" grrr! for pieces.. i made 1 major mistake for every one! was too nervous.. then for aural i bloody didn't know how to do the sight singing so i anyhow sang something horrible out and i think i answered quite alot of qns wrong and got my rhythm wrong! ok.. i should stop worrying and trust God on this.
Yesterday some teacher approached me to play the piano for i think the service in school this saturday.. i was like "what?!" i don't mind but its only 3 days notice, minus today.. i only have 1 day to prepare now! OHNO! then she said something like im supposed to work with aaron and mikhthm... mikhthm says he doesn't know anything and aaron has ceased to exist.. i dunno what to do, dunno what piece to play and i can't possibly preapre in one day! according to the teacher she sd someone gave her my name but she sd she cldn't tell who in case i blamed the person for saboing me.. that person apparently told her that im very good.. im lousy ok! there are sooo many ppl out there much better than me.. i will probably freak out big time on stage.. its in front of the whole sec 4 level and teachers and goodness knows who... theres bound to be alot of ppl.. wonder who the bugger is.. coz that bugger is sooo gonna get it frm me!
I noticed that i can't rest for awhile after all these tests! it juz hit me that i have an a math mock exam this coming monday and i haven't studied! im screwed this time.. REALLY screwed.. *shakes head* gotta go study for organic chem test tmr.. then i wil watch lost, inuyasha and i dun care im staying up to watch shaman king tonight...
let it snow
6:14 AM
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
the week has started pretty fine and it hope its stays fine.. im kinda stressed and worried at the moment coz my grade 6 piano practical exam is this thursday... and i haven't really put in much effort.. if i do well, i know very well that it's by God's grace. Really can't wait for all this to be over, piano prac. on thursday and organic chem test on fri, then i can juz relax for awhile before running agn.. seriously i haven't started on revision.. this damn piano practical is taking up all my time! i do nothing but practice piano.. actually had to stay up to finish my emaths trigo last night.. was really shagged! balancing music and work is really hard, with this exam over i can really concentrate on my work.. i really have to if not im doomed! the worst thoughts i can have now are imagining myself not being able to go to a jc for 1st 3 mths or retaining in sec 4! i get really freaked when i think of that.
Had chapel 1st thing. The message was bout dealing with rejection. After that the teacher started teaching everyone to sing the sch hymn(i used to sing it every friday in pri sch) the key is really high so not everyone can reach the high parts.. it was HILARIOUS when everyone's voice started cracking all over the hall during the high parts... it was a kinda serious atmosphere, then we hit the high part and everyone's voice cracked.. everyone instantly burst into laughter.. it was damn funny! and the reaction was damn big! lol!
Prayed to God to help me focus and concentrate in class. It's working, im actually focusing better now. This has to continue. Gave pink lady my letter of apology to pink lady today, she spent practically the whole lesson staring at my table.. how did i know? i was looking at her duh! we did practice on eng oral today we started coming up with crappy stuff to say bout the picture. Surprisingly managed to concentrate practically throughout the whole 1hr30min of amath today.. but i started crapping with aiyun and dorcas during emaths *guilty look* its all dorcas's fault! ms lee spotted a careless mistake in my working so she called me aunty then dorcas started this whole "family" thing.. its from oldest to youngest.. here goes, eunice is ahma, aiyun is ah soh and im aunty -_- while dorcas is the youngest.. then we started calculating everyone's "age" we took one month as a decade.. eunice is 80+, aiyun is 50+ and im 20 going on 21 (im 16 days older then dorcas, that makes me approximately "5 years" older then her) ok ok.. its very lame! but it was super funny.. dorcas and i kept coming up with stupid stuff causing the whole table to erupt with laughter.. ah soh is becoming senile and she has hallucinations of ah chek i think after ahma she's gonna be the next one in a straight jacket.. LOL! hey! i got a new "niece"! lame! -.-|||
After sch we had a rehersal for the award winners.. it may sound nice but im not happy with what i got.. like what the heck?! i slogged it out for 4yrs in that stoooopid cca and they gave me a certificate of appreciation?! after 4 yrs of sh*t and they are telling me "thank you very much, you are appreciated" ARGH! &*%$#@! the teachers are biased! if i knew i would have joined choir, it might not be as interesting as band but at least you don't get treated like dirt there. Well, no point crying over whats past.. at least im thankful i got something many ppl dun even have anything.. argh gotta go get that stupid cert on founder's day.. why do i keep getting stupid awards? *recalls the stupid chinese thing in sec 2*
went home and practiced piano after reading abit of harry potter.. yes.. i haven't finished it yet... im busy! got lotsa things to do.. looks like i have no time for harry potter.. i have been practicing piano everyday.. til im scared of the piano.. i dun feel like touching it.. after this exam im not gonna touch it for a long time.. i gotta go back to practicing soon and i don't wanna! i have no mood.. and im SHAGGED! well at least i get to ponteng sch this thursday. =)
let it snow
5:20 AM
Friday, July 22, 2005
this week has been really terrible.. the worst i ever had for a long time.. i have been "counselled" by 4 teachers this week.. its because they think i haven't been paying attention in class and my learning attitude is sucky.. it all started on monday when my form teacher sd she wanted to see me after sch.. it totally destroyed my whole day coz i spendt the rest of sch worrying bout what she wanted to see me bout.. no matter how much i thought i cldn't think of any occasions where i broke the rules.. matters were made worse when my e maths test came back.. i screwed it up and the e maths teacher was hopping mad with me.. he scolded me in front of the whole class and it ended with "i want to see you after sch!". it was bad.. i wanted to cry but i held back my tears for the whole lesson.. it was enough to make me go silent for the next 3hrs.. screwing up my test and having to see 2 teachers in 1 day was quite a devastating event to me.. cldn't take it anymore and broke down in chinese class.. i shan't go into details bout the talks.. but thankfully the emaths teacher spent only bout a minute lecturing me.. was in a really bad mood.. the next encounter was on wednesday when i heard the dreaded 7 words from my humanities teacher.. she told me some teachers said that i appeared not to be paying attention in class.. i actually am.. but there are times where i do shut off.. thursday.. got caught playing bingo by pink lady.. aiyun suggested playing games during her lesson so me, aiyun, dorcas and eunice ended up playing bingo.. was filling in the numbers in my grid and when i was done i sd "im done!" and grinned right into the black face of pink lady.. 1 sec later aiyun was grinning into Pink lady's black face as well.. yup.. busted.. she lectured the class for bout 5mins before saying she didn't wanna waste time scolding us and cont. teaching.. looks like we really have to write those letters of apology now.. its kinda poignant.. after sch a maths teacher talked to me.. but thankfully it was short too.. its seems like all my subject teachers planned this.. im sure they did.. today.. me an aiyun forgot to do our chem hw and the chem teacher happened to call me to write my answer on board.. i went "ohno! i forgot to do!" and apparently she lip read me! busted agn... i had to do the qn on the spot was kinda stuck without the textbk...
i have just come to a point where i watch my life fall apart.. everything i worked hard for just crumbling before my eyes.. why did i ever let this happen in the first place? im really screwing up my own life.. but i don't wish to mention bout the stuff thats happened.. it hurts alot... things MUST change for the better...
Alright... sadness aside. Though this week was sucky there were still funny times.. sam brought his soprano saxophone to sch, tsemin took the cork grease out and went "it looks like lip gloss" in case u all don't know.. cork grease is something where you put on the part where you join the different parts of the instrument together.. its for easy removal of the parts... sam went "its lip gloss" jeraldine went "yar! you supposed to put it on yr lips, makes them feel liang and it will aid you in your playing" then she sd "apply it to yr bottom lip.. yes.. apply some more" and tsemin really applied it.. i was laughing like some idiot and that was an obvious give away that someting was wrong.. was super funny.. everyone was in hysterics..
today aiyun brought gummy bears and dorcas took 2 clear gummy bears out and sd they were jimmy and jenny reincarnated... then she took a purple one and called it limpei... aiyun started torturing gummy bears agn and we came up with "20 ways of killing gummy bears" we are planning to carry them out and take pictures.. will post them up when they are done.. yup! ok.. very lame.. eunice lent me harry potter and the half blood prince today! whee! im hooked onto reading it now.. we discovered why harry potter looks so shocked in the front page.. its coz he's about to get devoured by gummy bears.. dorcas arranged jimmy, jenny and limpei around harry potter's face and started taking pics.. after taking thm we noticed the expression on harry potter's face corresponded well with the scenario.. its quite stupid i have the picture.. lol.. later aiyun started murdering dorcas at the locker when her skirt seam burst! haha! aiyun.. serves you right! im gonna cont. reading harry potter...
let it snow
7:34 AM
Tuesday, July 19, 2005
I WANT TO READ HARRY POTTER AND THE HALF BLOOD PRINCE!!!!!!!!!!!!
eunice is currently on page 500+ so most prob i will be able to get it by end of this week.. i can't wait to get my hands on the book.. but i don't really like the fact that it has a darker plot.. oh well.. today was a rather ok day.. in compasrison with monday which i don't wanna talk about.. i finally buckled under the stress and broke down during chinese.. and due to other stuff too.. STOP! cont. bout today.. had chapel in then had physics then eng and pink lady is angry with us and wants us to write letters of apology to her.. whats with her and letters of apology? sheesh! *recalls library incident* shes definitely not getting one frm me.. after eng was recess then bio.. we are doing revsision on the heart now.. don't really like that chapt. coz its a very heavy chapt. After bio was the 2 maths back to back... im starting to get the hang of relative velocity for vectors.. but still not very sure... next was e maths.. we did this exercise on probability.. it was purely frustrating! i cld have ripped the paper apart! we almost died calculating and counting and arguing over the answers, but it was fun in away.. sch ended then went to ms ong to plan my time table.. now i more or less have a time table customed made for me. Went for piano lesson.. oh man! my practical exam is next thursday and im really scared! have to discipline myself to practice.. mom picked me up then i went to some pet shop there were these 2 puppies, silky terrier mixed with shnauzer.. super cute and hyper! they were all over my hand.. my mom is prejudiced against lady's lap dogs.. she sd she didn't like the 2 maltese pups.. they are like sooo cute! 2 balls of fur and fluff.. *aww* apparently she doesn't really have a liking for the toy dogs.. hm.. next time i wanna keep a shetland sheepdog and if i live abroad i wanna keep a siberian husky..
let it snow
3:48 AM
Friday, July 15, 2005
the week turned out to be ok i guess.. started the day with physics.. was shagged frm watching anime last night so i fell aslp during physics.. all coz of anime i can't slp early on wed, thur, fri!! then it was bio.. went through hormones... then chinese.. the cher showed us hong lou meng and told us some juicy stuff bout the book.. i didn't know chinese classics cld be like that.. we had early recess which was gd.. after recess we tried to scare aiyun on her way to the locker.. but we failed.. then we had chem.. cut out those paper men joining hands... whatever thats called lar.. then started playing with it.. we started laughing and i got scolded by chem teacher.. no fair! maybe coz im directly facing her thats why i get all the scolding.. then it was a maths.. my a math teacher has the potential of being a rapper... thankfully a math ended 30min earlier coz she had something to attend to.. spent the remaining 30min slacking and watching linus chase ken ard the learn@fairfield.. ended up doing vectors hw..
sch ended and we went to dover for lunch despite the warning of the teacher not to go there.. aiyun bought gummy bears and started torturing them.. dorcas fnd 2 new friends jimmy and jenny and refuses to eat them.. we were fighting in 7/11 over the sweets it was damn childish, we were making quite a racket.. picture 3 sec4s fighting over which candy to choose at the pick and mix section.. shengyang stole my favourite candy which was the only 1 in the packet... ARGH! stupid syang! then we had listening.. BUGGER! its as hard as last yrs! my qn 2 is definitely wrong! why didn't i pay attention?! argh! no more full marks for me, and joshua still has the cheek to tell me he's most prob. getting full marks.. im gonna strangle him with my own 2 hands! tore up my question paper but unfortunately didn't gain the full satisfaction of it.. it obviously invited lots of stares..
Im gonna tear up my qn paper and throw the bits like confetti on the last day of o's.. watch me.. then we will have a bbq but instead of charcoal we will use our piles of notes and purposely have it in sch.. haha. Went to meet cal at outram later and ended up taking the train back to sch coz i left my physics tys and chem textbk in the canteen.. so much for tearing up my qn paper.. really panicked.. those books are really impt at this point of time.. can't afford to lose them.. cldn't find them.. was rather upset.. im grateful that lejing went to look for the books with me and helped me call ppl to ask bout my books.. thank u lejing! went to orchard anyway coz cal was wating for me outside sch.. on the way there, nabi called to tell me that my books were with sam! was really relieved.. thank u sam and nabi too! was pouring and ended up running in the rain frm lucky plaza to cine.. was super drenched and cold.. bought the tix for fantastic 4.. im broke.. movies are rip offs! never watch movies on fri or weekends.. fantastic 4 was really good.. very funny and the effects were good.. esp. the last part, really cool.. the human torch is so cool and super funny.. i have to admit jessica alba is hot.. ok im most prob gonna watch it on sunday agn.. coz i promised nabi i hope i can get the tix at $1.60 this time muz buy straits times.. no way am i gonna pay $9.50! after the movie we went to take neoprint.. haha.. then had dinner before going to cal's hse.. watched inuyasha.. was super funny.. but didn't pay attention to shaman king.. then had a mid night stroll by the sea with her and her parents before mom came and fetched me home at abt 12.30.. haiz we used to live so near to each other.. i hope we can still cont. to spend lotsa time together!
let it snow
7:53 AM
Monday, July 11, 2005
today sucked.. typical sucky day.. we got a big scolding during the 1st period of the day.. what can be worst than that? ok.. its our fault.. who asked us not to do our hw... *guilty* then it was a maths.. i juz can't grasp the concept for relative velocity for vectors! its sooo dry.. i can't pay attention.. i wld try to but my mind wld start to drift and before i noe it im entering lala land... hlp! then it was chem... time seriously seemed to CRAWL today... after chem was recess.. did some last min. studying for e maths test.. then we had e maths test.. i hate loci.. its irritating.. i spent too much time on loci i didn't finish my vectors! ARGH!! and i knew how to do the vectors! i juz needed more time.. looks like im done for.. =x next was chinese.. had a practice on listening, i got full marks! yay! then we spent the rest of the lesson slacking.
After chinese we went for the NJC talk.. im starting to get really worried.. my results have been really screwed.. i keep telling myself that i have to study but its NOT working.. i can't bring myself to do so.. im still as slack as ever.. i really need the discipline.. i really wanna get into NJC.. i feel really lost, worried and upset.. sch. finally ended and mom fetched me home..
Aiyun was dedicating messages to her friends on her blog and i fnd a message for me.. here goes... [isabel,
hey you! haha. the isabra! you're a darn funny, cheeky and hilarious girl you know that. you gotta learn how to pick yourself up when you're down man. don't let others put you down. the world sucks, but we just gotta learn how to live in it. cheer up okay! thanks alot for the smiles and laughter.] yea.. the world does suck and im still learning how to live in it... it may snd stupid but i don't wanna turn 16 even if it means no nc-16 movies.. being 15 or younger i feel more protected and i certainly don't wanna leave that umbrella of protection. i wish i didn't have to grow up, then i wld always have a big grp of ppl protecting and looking after me. At least i can be childish no matter how old i am right? on my way to michelle's hse that day i happened to overhear a conversation between 2 gals 1 of thm sd being alone is when u can truly be yrself.. i agree.. as the yrs go by i notice that i prefer being alone more, when im sad i juz wanna lock my self in my rm, bury my face in a pillow and cry.. then i wld start thinking and reflecting.. i tend to get really irritable when im down.. usually whoever talks to me will get snapped at.. but sometimes when im down i really wish for a shoulder to cry on.. someone who wld juz be there, the person wldn't need to say anything, as long as i know someone cares.. well.. i juz thank God for the shoulders i cld cry on when i was down.. oh no! this snds so negative and depressing! well.. maybe coz im not feeling too gd at the moment.. isabel lum! pick yrself up!!
let it snow
3:16 AM
Friday, July 08, 2005
whheeee! friday last day of sch!! haha... like finally! matthew came back today and we got a class rm on the first floor.. er.. not exactly class rm.. we were expecting something like the lecture theatre or auditorium or at least an air conditioned class rm.. but guess what? we got the life science lab... yay! *sarcasm* oh well.. at least we got a fixed "classrm" for 1 or 2 weeks.. well.. at the expense of mathhew.. oh! didn't explain what happened to him.. ok.. we were having sports heats for 8 by 100m my class was lagging so he ran super fast and overtook lotsa ppl but after that he couldn't get up.. he thought he pulled a muscle but it was actually something with his bone.. so yea.. he got hospitalised in gleneagles and he just finished surgery on his hip bone. mathhew's our class hero! lol.. ok.. my grp presented for physics then it was bio.. we were like ah!! we are saved! when we saw our bio cher... then we had chinese.. cher showed us some show called lei yu.. its a new chap. but i learnt it before in sec 3 higher chinese so its like my 2nd time learning it... but we didn't get to watch vidoes! we did it the old fashioned boring way.. after that was recess.. then chem.. although it was only 30 min. i almost fell aslp.. then it was 1hr 30min. of a maths.. i knew i couldn't take it... ended up dozing off.. then talking bout movies and inuyasha.. didn't pay attention for the whole lesson... im sooo dead! O! i have a new obsession... INUYASHA!!! its like soooooo nice! i think im hooked to it already.. can't wait for o lvls to be over then its anime marathon!!! theres ALOT of animes i wanna watch... oh man! its like my type of anime... the type that appeals to me i guess... SUPER NICE! AAHHH! ok.. i know im kinda slow inuyasha has been out for sooo long.. happened to stumble upon it recently and got hooked.. haha.. dorcas is gonna lend me her inuyasha cds after Os... hm.. naruto fans don't like inuyasha... pity... STUPID AIYUN lar! how can she say inuyasha sux?! i think thats the only anime we dun see eye to eye with.. haha.. oh well.. can't wait for inuyasha tonight... wheeee!! ok.. after sch some of us had to do some NE thing... they chose the wrong person! im definitely NOT a gd choice... lets just say im not very patriotic.. we were in the auditorium making sarcastic and funny remarks.. kept laughing at the qns and our ans.. mom fetched me afterwards... supposed to be studying for my e maths.. i have a vectors and loci test on mon. and a mock e maths exam on tue. HELP! im supposed to be studying now but er... *grinz*
let it snow
1:20 AM