Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Ok.. i've been on holiday since goodness knows when and i've actually had 2 more extra days.. so i should be grateful enough for that and not sulk about having to go back to school. SUCK IT UP AND FACE IT!
let it snow
6:57 AM
Sunday, January 11, 2009
It's not that bad and everything's gonna be FINE!!Yes isabel.. psycho yourself!! Here i am sulking at home 2 days before school starts. One sem in nus has really taken a chunk out of me hence the feelings of great apprehension. Throw in my timetable and an evening final paper which drags my last day of school to the 5th of may; i feel great! =x But then again i'm taking modules that i actually like this sem so hopefully it won't be that bad.
I WILL LIKE BIOCHEMISTRY AND MOLECULAR GENETICS!!I'd better like it.. it's not a choice. Lets just hope i can actually take them down without the pained look on my face; Like i hope i can genuinely like and enjoy these modules.
And to make things less painful and myself less sulky, i have decided to come up with a list of things i can look forward to... (in no particular order)
- I'm taking thai and human anatomy! Which means i get to see the dead bodies! Cool right? And i've been wanting to take these 2 modules since last sem.
- I managed to get a non examinable module with a free s/u. Meaning that i will have 4 written papers instead of 5 this sem! =)
- When i start school, it will just be another 9 more days before the cny hols start so i'll get another holiday pretty soon. =)
- At least i have only 6 out of 13 fridays where i end at 7 as opposed to the 13 fridays i initially thought it was.
- RECESS WEEK!
- My new phone.
- The alternate mondays and fridays where i don't have school
- More days where i can wake up later as compared to last sem.
- mugging with my dear nabi
- Shu huey's emails
- Celebrating mel's and amos' birthdays
- Going to church
- retail therapy
- Hoping and anticipating my uni replies would come in with good news
- and THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!!! You can so bet on it that i'll be couting down to that day.
Ok.. i feel alot better now.. It WON'T be that bad after all. And no matter what i have God backing me up all the way and a bunch of friends readily available for me to whine to. (i apologise in advance to whoever's gonna have to put up with my whinning) So it's all going to be fine. It will be.
let it snow
7:18 PM
Wednesday, January 07, 2009
oh gosh.. i'm having random thoughts at 1.38 in the morning. Pretty weird hour to be thinking. I was just thinking about the happy events in 2008 i.e SERVE, Cambodia, TMT etc... and i was really wishing that i could re-live those memories. Like go back in time and live in a continuos loop of those times.. sure i wouldn't be sick of it. But unfortunately, (or should i say fortunately?) that's not ever going to happen.
Fortunately so because as we move on, there's this hope where we'll stumble upon something even happier. The future brings with it new possibilities... the question is will it turn out for the better or worse?
Would you rather live in a continuos loop of past happy events or would you rather move on in hope of finding something better? ok.. that's a stupid question because we don't really have a choice in that. The only way the former's gonna happen is if you turn mental and start hallucinating.
Sigh.. i guess when you go through tough times you tend to long for the good old times; like a child trying to catch his own shadow. But some things i've sorted out from this bout of random thoughts is that though the future is unpredictable and possibly volatile, i know that God holds the future and He's the only constant in our everchanging surroundings. I can't say that i'm taking a better outlook on life's storms because of that knowledge but i'm working on it.
let it snow
9:38 AM
Sunday, January 04, 2009
"What's worse, new wounds which are so horribly painful or old wounds that should've healed years ago and never did? Maybe our old wounds teach us something. They remind us where we've been and what we've overcome. They teach us lessons about what to avoid in the future. That's what we like to think. But that's not the way it is, is it? Some things we just have to learn over and over and over again." - Grey's Anatomy
let it snow
9:21 AM
Monday, December 29, 2008
"People have scars. In all sorts of unexpected places. Like secret roadmaps of their personal histories. Diagrams of all their old wounds. Most of our wounds heal, leaving nothing behind but a scar. But some of them don't. Some wounds we carry with us everywhere and though the cut's long gone, the pain still lingers. " - Grey's Anatomy (Scars and Souvenirs)
Yup i couldn't agree more...
let it snow
9:54 PM
Friday, December 26, 2008
haha i feel like posting again! Anyway this post is going to be on the theme of giving thanks...
Yes.. i admit i've been whining alot and this post runs counter to the previous 2 posts but admidst the dreariness there's still stuff to smile about.
I thank God for my friends who saw me through my shittiest moments and still love me despite the ugly attitude i'm capable of displaying.
I thank God for my exam results. I seriously expected to do worse and i felt that i didn't deserve my results. I got my results by His strength and grace and not by my own might.
I'm thankful for the time i got to spend with my groups of friends and the opportunities to catch up with dearies i haven't met for ages. (eg cal!!)
I'm thankful for being able to spend Christmas with my church friends and all the presents i got =D. As usual.. xuan spoilt the market again this year.
I'm thankful that it's mom's birthday again and i've had coco with me for 7 years. =)
And most importantly, i'm thankful for God's gift of salvation to everyone and His great love for us. God's love is the greatest gift ever.
let it snow
9:03 AM
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
ok.. it's more or less official.. i'm stuck in nus for another sem. oh joy.
let it snow
9:49 PM